If you don’t want to get into a boxing ring with me, then don’t be the next person to tell me “you just need to be content”.
I am VERY frustrated, to the point that I literally screamed in my car on the way to work. I’m so frustrated that I’m struggling against envy of guys who can spar with martial arts to vent out their frustrations and struggles. I’m still a feminine woman, but I would MUCH rather box it out than have a good cry. I don’t know martial arts, so it negates that option; I can’t even work out or dance because I hurt my back really bad a couple of weeks ago. I’m praying for restraint as one of many things, cause if one more person does tell me that “I need to feel content”, I’m gonna cause some serious damage.
At least that’s how I feel, for I’ve never been known to have a temper that actually physically exerts itself in a dangerous way. But oh, how I wish I could kung fu my feelings out; or pound my feet into the pavement running and feel every emotion draining into the ground.
I agree that it is possible to BE content. Paul learned the secret of it by giving all of his extreme situations to God; trusting in Him, and knowing he could do all things in Christ’s strength.
Now, what I want to clarify for what most people assume, is whether we will FEEL content. That is NOT the case. Look at what Paul says, “I can DO everything in Him, who gives me strength.” That doesn’t mean that he feels perfectly happy in all situations. You think he was feeling good when the boat sank, when he was beaten, etc? I’m pretty sure the normal “happy” feeling we associate with contentment was not what he was experiencing. However, Paul knew God would help him do what he needed to do in all the situations.
Now, what I CAN/SHOULD do, is give it to God in prayer. CHOOSING (not feeling) to trust that He’s in control and use the shield of faith. For He’s exactly who He said is, will do exactly what He’s promised to do, and will not rip me off. Then, it’s choosing again and again as it comes up to leave my emotions in His hands and trusting in His time He’s going to help change my emotions and heart. Regardless if He chooses to change my circumstances, etc. For only He knows exactly what Jeremiah 29:11 means for my life.
I'll admit that it's semi-hard to write this, for who knows whose gonna stumble across this blog and think I'm a nut case. I assure you, I'm sane. I have two roomies who are certified Psychologists with their Masters. They have confirmed I'm mentally sound, lol... I actually have to thank one of them for helping me outward process some of this and validate that it's "ok to not feel content". Our society puts so much pressure on us to act like we have it all together. That when anybody is "real" or "authentic" about what we're going through or feeling, it freaks people out. Or, the people holding it in actually end up freaking out and really do go nuts. Now, I'm not saying we need to go unload our garbage with every detail on the entire world. There's a time and a place for sharing, with discretion needed. Though often people error on the mum side than not, I think, and achieving that magical word "balance" is like finding a unicorn. Also, sometimes your very struggle and how God is pulling you through, might be the exact thing someone needs to hear...