Princess Analogous - Living in a hut on the Rock

Hold On My Darling ** *Darling did you know that I I dream

2007-11-10T13:47:00.000-08:00

Hold On My Darling

Darling did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time

Darling did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
And keep your loving eyes only for me

Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait

Darling did you know
I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
And darling when I say
Till death do us part
I'll mean it with all of my heart
Now and always faithful to you

Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait

Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there's forgiveness and a second chance
So wait for me
Darling wait for me
Wait for me

Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Cause, I am waiting for
Praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
Darling wait
Wait for me
Darling wait
Cause I'm waiting for you
Cause I'm waiting for you
So wait for me
Darling wait
Wait for me

lyrics - Rebecca St. James "Wait For Me"

Same Person?! So someone showed me some music videos of a

2007-11-04T20:03:00.000-08:00

Same Person?!

So someone showed me some music videos of a Korean artist name Lee Min Woo. I love this single of his called "If You". Very sweet song, video and he has a pretty good voice. (see below)

Now, she showed me later some more videos of him and my jaw hit the floor. No way this could be the same person?! He LOOKED a lot different and the style was COMPLETELY different. Now, I understand artists wanting to branch out and explore their creativity. Still, this floored me in the difference. As much as I like more upbeat danceable music, I have to say I like the sweet first one "If You" much better. Bad boys come and go, but the sweet nice geeky boys are the ones that stay with you. Much hotter than "bad boys" tearin' their clothes off (even if they do have good lookin' bodies...). I understand the whole drive that men are forced into by society (along with girls who have left nice guys for the bad boys) to try and look tough. But let this be said for all the nice girls out there for all the guys bemoaning about no one likes the nice guys... We do!! I will refrain from blogging in addition though how guys do the exact same thing. Going for the "hottie" girls who drop them like flies and break their hearts. Try a cute girl for once, you must just find out that you prefer us. :D

Boxing Ring If you don’t want to get into a boxing ring with

2007-11-01T15:52:00.000-07:00

Boxing Ring

If you don’t want to get into a boxing ring with me, then don’t be the next person to tell me “you just need to be content”.

I am VERY frustrated, to the point that I literally screamed in my car on the way to work. I’m so frustrated that I’m struggling against envy of guys who can spar with martial arts to vent out their frustrations and struggles. I’m still a feminine woman, but I would MUCH rather box it out than have a good cry. I don’t know martial arts, so it negates that option; I can’t even work out or dance because I hurt my back really bad a couple of weeks ago. I’m praying for restraint as one of many things, cause if one more person does tell me that “I need to feel content”, I’m gonna cause some serious damage.

At least that’s how I feel, for I’ve never been known to have a temper that actually physically exerts itself in a dangerous way. But oh, how I wish I could kung fu my feelings out; or pound my feet into the pavement running and feel every emotion draining into the ground.

I agree that it is possible to BE content. Paul learned the secret of it by giving all of his extreme situations to God; trusting in Him, and knowing he could do all things in Christ’s strength.

Now, what I want to clarify for what most people assume, is whether we will FEEL content. That is NOT the case. Look at what Paul says, “I can DO everything in Him, who gives me strength.” That doesn’t mean that he feels perfectly happy in all situations. You think he was feeling good when the boat sank, when he was beaten, etc? I’m pretty sure the normal “happy” feeling we associate with contentment was not what he was experiencing. However, Paul knew God would help him do what he needed to do in all the situations.

Now, what I CAN/SHOULD do, is give it to God in prayer. CHOOSING (not feeling) to trust that He’s in control and use the shield of faith. For He’s exactly who He said is, will do exactly what He’s promised to do, and will not rip me off. Then, it’s choosing again and again as it comes up to leave my emotions in His hands and trusting in His time He’s going to help change my emotions and heart. Regardless if He chooses to change my circumstances, etc. For only He knows exactly what Jeremiah 29:11 means for my life.
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I'll admit that it's semi-hard to write this, for who knows whose gonna stumble across this blog and think I'm a nut case. I assure you, I'm sane. I have two roomies who are certified Psychologists with their Masters. They have confirmed I'm mentally sound, lol... I actually have to thank one of them for helping me outward process some of this and validate that it's "ok to not feel content". Our society puts so much pressure on us to act like we have it all together. That when anybody is "real" or "authentic" about what we're going through or feeling, it freaks people out. Or, the people holding it in actually end up freaking out and really do go nuts. Now, I'm not saying we need to go unload our garbage with every detail on the entire world. There's a time and a place for sharing, with discretion needed. Though often people error on the mum side than not, I think, and achieving that magical word "balance" is like finding a unicorn. Also, sometimes your very struggle and how God is pulling you through, might be the exact thing someone needs to hear...

Enjoying Winter It's been a while since I regularly updated

2007-11-01T01:26:00.000-07:00

Enjoying Winter

It's been a while since I regularly updated this. I've just begun a hiatus of Facebook, Myspace, etc. Life has been crazy in many ways with work, class, life, etc...

Yet, creative me has to have SOME outlet. Thankfully, not many people read this anymore due to my own lack of updates. So, while it gets crankin' again I won't need to feel rushed to fix it in the little bit of time I have.

Enjoying winter, though I know it's "technically" not the season of Winter right now. I read in a book recently, about how the spiritual season of winter is a time of letting go. Yet, you have to let go of the dead leaves, so you can raise your arms free to praise God. Empty you may be, but in time, God will bring Spring in your life. Who wants a bunch of dead leaves anyways...

In honor of letting some things go, so God can finally work some NEW stuff in my life, thought I'd share this poem. I used to keep all my writing anonymous, but decided it's time for some changes in how I do things ;)

Winter
冬
Will you kiss my soul,
And set me free
Break the bonds
Of my captivity.
囚禁
A shadow long has passed
O’er the fragments of my soul
You touch, a steady beam of light
The Son is what I need.
願
I tried to hide the pieces
Tucked away inside of me
Clinging to the brokenness
It was all that I could see.
破
But now the last leaf is falling
I’m laying it down to rest
For it’s in the winter graveyard
That life can start afresh.
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South Africa = Southern California? I just got back from an

2007-07-23T20:21:00.000-07:00

South Africa = Southern California?

I just got back from an amazing outreach to share Jesus' love in South Africa. It was the most wonderful experience I could have imagined. I expected culture shock, and to really feel like a fish out of water. However, I was in the very South of Africa, the actual country South Africa, in a city right by the beach. With the mountains, ocean, and winter temperature, it looked like Southern California. I felt completely at home.

However, the biggest similarity was in the heart of people. I got to work in a township (shacks in a set area) where people's lives were being run and destroyed by drugs, alcohol, sex, AIDS, rape, and violence. Yet how is that differrent from America? We may hide it better sometimes behind the country's wealth, but underneath it all is the same heart of poverty. We wear a mask of being an open country, but have closed hearts. Here, there was nothing seperating the people's heart from reality. I saw hunger, not just physical, but of the soul. How people are trying to feel that hunger with all the above things only to come up empty. I saw lives changed as God shared His love through Jesus in me. Praise God, that His love is known in any language, around the world, plain for all who will have eyes to see, ears to hear, and hearts to receive!

Changes Well, its been quite a birthday year, full of

2007-04-04T11:31:00.000-07:00

Changes

Well, its been quite a birthday year, full of changes. I've moved three times, started a new job, and more. I just moved this past weekend in with a family from church while I'm still searching for a new place and roomie. I'm so blessed and grateful for them, for its me AND my cat, and they understand it might be until summer that I find a roomie. New changes also include the possibility of going to Africa this summer to serve and reach out. Who knows what is in store. While, I'll be honest that my life isn't where I expected it to be at all right now, I can trust that God is good and will take care of me one step at a time.

Petition for Subtitles! Pass along! Well, I posted this on

2007-03-15T21:16:00.000-07:00

Petition for Subtitles! Pass along!

Well, I posted this on Facebook, and trying to get this bigger. I want it to be in the thousands, so hopefully they'll listen. Feel free to start your own list and send it to me in excel. Please post on your websites, Facebooks, Myspaces, and anywhere else :) Jia you!

Original post:
SETTV & CTS Petition for English Subs
This is a group with the expectation of taking all members to create a petition to send to SETTV and CTS requesting that they re-release some of their shows with English sub-titles that do not currently have them. Invite your friends, lets see how big we can get this and hopefully they'll follow through!!

"All I want for my birthday is..." Well, you know you're

2007-03-12T16:09:00.000-07:00

"All I want for my birthday is..."

Well, you know you're hooked on watching Mandarin TV dramas, when the only thing you want for you birthday a month away is a DVD player that can play ALL region DVDs to hook up to my TV, so I can get the shows that haven't been released with our region. Sigh.

Sweet! I found these two online, you can read the bible in

2007-03-08T20:47:00.000-08:00

Sweet!

I found these two online, you can read the bible in Chinese and English! Though I can't tell for sure on the online one if its traditional or simplified, I think its traditional. :D

http://www.sinapower.net/modules/bible/
http://www.ibs.org/bibles/chinese/

New direction "Life sometimes changes unexpectedly. When you

2007-03-05T18:40:00.000-08:00

New direction

"Life sometimes changes unexpectedly. When you walk bravely in that direction, you find the darkness has already left long ago." Qi Luo - Mars

Princess Analogous - Living in a hut on the Rock

*Hold On My Darling* ** *Darling did you know that I I dream

*Same Person?!* So someone showed me some music videos of a

*Boxing Ring* If you don’t want to get into a boxing ring with

*Enjoying Winter* It's been a while since I regularly updated

*South Africa = Southern California?* I just got back from an

*Changes* Well, its been quite a birthday year, full of

*Petition for Subtitles! Pass along!* Well, I posted this on

*"All I want for my birthday is..."* Well, you know you're

*Sweet!* I found these two online, you can read the bible in

*New direction* "Life sometimes changes unexpectedly. When you